S.O. (Scarlett October)

I'm not gonna go on with this blog without telling you about myself. My name's Scarlett October (not my real name). My blog name tells a bit about myself. I love (LOVE) the color red (especially maroon) and Scarlett is in the red 'family' and plus, it's a really pretty name. Scarlett is one of those names that seems like it has a secret behind it (in this case, yes). I was born in October and I love the month so it seemed somewhat necessary to include it somewhere.

I love books. Books are downright amazingness! I love the books with all the little surprises in them like, 'The Thirteenth Tale'. If you haven't read this yet, READ IT! It may seem a little boring at first but it gets really good. The story is somewhat dark and depressing but it has a  lot of unsuspected twists. I love old book stores. I don't know why. Maybe it's like the thing with old people (I absolutely adore old people). They have so much history (books and old people) and so much to share. Letting them tell their stories is a guilty pleasure of mine. Oh, and I have to have a book-book when I'm reading. Not one of those online book things (unless I'm absolutely desperate and NEED to read that particular book right away). There's something about the feel of books that never gets old. Oh, and I love the smell of old books (who doesn't?)

I play the piano and I can't get enough of it. I bike to piano lessons (which is like, 2 miles away. So, not a big deal) and I hate practicing. It's completely annoying! I practice the same song over and over and over. And when I think I have a part right, I go ahead and mess it up again. And don't get me started on dynamics. Oh. My. Gosh. Frustrating. Especially since, with dynamics, you have to make it sound beautiful, put your whole soul into the piece, make it sound all flowy and like a story. I'm working on a piece right now where dynamics mean everything (oh, and fingering). 'Moonlight Sonata.' For all you non-pianoers out there, you probably heard of it before. Amazingly good piece.

I make up my own pieces on the piano. I like doing this more than piano lessons. But, I have to actually learn all the nick-nacks about piano in order to actaully learn all those weird symbol things. Plus, it's helped me a lot with writing down my pieces on paper (not easy to do!) Before piano lessons, I had this little toy keyboard where I would make up songs on it. I'd also listen to a song on the radio and figure out the notes. What I'd really love to do is to write music for movies. The movies wouldn't be the same without the music! And it would be awesome to hear my music played by an orchestra!

I love music. I love all types except for that really hard, hard rock. It hurts my ears. I love Yanni's piano music (if you never heard of him, SHAME ON YOU! haha JK. But if you haven't heard of him, look up his songs on YouTube). I'm that type of person who will listen to whatever sounds good on the radio. But I love my 101.3 KDWB with Ryan Seacrest in the morning (mostly when I'm in work-out mode).

Every morning I bike around my home town/city/whatever you call it. It's about 4 miles. I've been slacking off lately, mostly because I'v been sleeping in super late. I like biking in the mornings (8 a.m.) because it's nice and cool, the sun's still fresh in the sky, and there's something about 'morning air' that I love. I also run (on the treadmill) and exercise. Call me a work-out freak but I want to stay in shape. They say you're supposed to get 30 min. or more of cardio and an HOUR of meditation (yoga). I still need to work on the yoga part. Haven't really tried it out (the dumb yoga stuff I did in school doesn't count) but it looks really...refreshing? Oh, and I'm working on getting some abs. That's my goal, to get me some abs.

I love adventure. I can't get enough of it. I'm the type to go into a creepy dark cave or climb a tree. I'm curious about things and I love to figure things out. I think it'd be SO cool to go under water and check out an old shipwreck. I LOVE shipwrecks, especially the stories behind them. Maybe it's because I love the Pirates of the Caribbean movies (I'm a total POC geek) but it's something about huge, old ships that I love.

I really like the 1700/1800's time era. I love, love, love their dresses. But don't get me wrong, the corsets are murder. And the hygiene back then...yeah, they could've done better. But, I like the dresses and furniture from those time eras (oh, and the ships). They're so beautiful. You can't really find anything like those things nowadays.

I have 2 cats. Laundry Hog and Miss Spaz. No, that's not their real names (I have to protect my animals too!) but they sure fit them. Laundry Hog is, well, a laundry hog. Whenever he sees fresh, warm towels sitting in the laundry basket, he hops right it and falls alseep. Hard to move him since he looks so cute. He's super sweet! Miss Spaz is a total spaz. Just yesterday, she thought it would be 'fun' to jump onto my back. She was starting to lose her balance and decided to dig her claws into my neck. I started freaking out and pushed her off. Don't EVER do that! Her claws were still in my neck and when I pushed her off, they slid their way down and made nasty scratches (well, there's really only one deep one). And sometimes, she'll just go in the middle of the living room and start running in circles and hissing. The first time she did this I thought there was something wrong with her. Found out it was a bug (now her and Laundry Hog eat bugs....ick!) AND, they both have this thing where (if my room door is closed) they just sit and meow until I open it for them. If I don't they'll paw at it and make a huge fuss. I love them to death though. It's sweet how they both comfort me when I get sick. They're my babies!!

I have body image issues (who doesn't?) I hate the way some things look and...ugh, I don't get why some people get to be so beautiful and some (like me) so...plain and....just, ick. I'll go more in depth some other day.

I'm shy. I'm getting better, though. I used to turn red at almost everything: when a new person talked to me, when a teacher called on me, and sometimes, I would get these moments where I'd just feel really overwhelmed and stressed out. It's weird though, I think I can control my 'turning redness' stuff. I think of cold things or a totally different subject and I don't turn red. Sometimes, I pretend that I'm super confident (trick myself into thinking so) and I don't turn red. Call me weird, but it helps me.

As you can probably tell, I'm not the most confident person on this earth. Maybe it's because of my body image issues or I never thought of myself as a confident person. But I made a promise to myself that I would overcome my issues/insecurites. I don't know how long that will take, but I'm up for the challenge!

Hmmm......I'm not a techno nerd. I don't have texting (I know, horrible isn't it?) I don't have a Facebook and I didn't have an email until a month ago. Talk about pathetic. Oh, and I don't have an i-pod either. It's not my fault. My parents won't allow texting, one of my friends and I set up my email, and I'm thinking of getting a Facebook. I have a MP3 player that I listen to on the bus (during the school year, duh) but I know it's not as awesome as an i-pod. I think it's time for me to make a wish list......

I love animals. I can't get enough of them. This year, when I turn 16 (since I have to be 16 in order to get this particular job) I'm gonna volunteer at an animals shelter. The Humane Society. I'm gonna do volunteering because I can get a scholarship from my school if I do so many volunteer hours by my senior year. I really want a horse. They are darling! I love their eyes. I was at the county fair a week ago and there was this beautiful horse there named Mocha. She was white with brown spots and an amber colored mane. She had big brown eyes and was the sweetest thing! I would go up to her and softly smooth her nose. She would then look at me and bow her head so I would pet her ears and mane. Once I'd stop, she would bring her head back up and look at me as if saying, "Why'd you stop?!" and I'd go back to smoothing her nose and she'd duck her head again. So cute. I really want a horse. I've never rode/ridden one before and I'd love to.

I have an older sister, August (not her real name) who's sort of the opposite of me. She's outgoing, tan, has brown hair, and likes to party...a lot. Oh, and she can be a total snobby biatch sometimes. She's in college, though so she doesn't bother me much. I miss her sometimes. Me, on the other hand, am somewhat outgoing (I love to meet new people), I can get tan but am mostly pale, I have goldeny blonde hair, and I like to party, but not the club kind of party. Maybe it's because I've never been to a club, but, I don't know. I don't trust them. I'd much rather hang out with my friends and be a crazy teenager.

I'm a sweetie with a crazy streak. If someone needs a person to talk to in the middle of the night, needs a hug, or has a nasty cut and needs some help, I'm the person you can always turn to. I like helping people out and letting them know I'm there for them and someone they can trust in. I'm great with secrets. If you tell me a secret and to never tell people, you don't have to worry. I'll take it to the grave with me. Oh yeah, I have a crazy streak. Sometimes I have the urge to do something crazy and I'll do it. I'll make brownies at 2 a.m. if I have an uncontrolable craving (I know, I'm such a rebel) or I'll sneak outside at night and sit on the dock we have by the pond. I'll just sit there, thinking. Sometimes, I think I think too much. Then I start to worry and well....I turn into a worry wart.

I'll probably add in things here and there about myself. Jeesh, wrote a lot!

WTYL,
Scarlett Ocotber (xoxo)